Day 17: Low quality abuse is the sincerest form of flattery

I guess the main thing today is the 'hilarious' blog set up by some anonymous individual to rip the piss out of me. Now, I'm not stranger to others feeling the need to dedicate whole websites to me, the past has seen 'Alex is a cunt' appear twice (and be removed twice when other people reported it for violation of the creator's ISP terms and conditions), and more recently someone tried to set up a whole forum dedicated to attacking me.

So when 'Get Stupid, Confident!' appeared, credited to 'Thee Alex' (as noted elsewhere, my online name in a multitude of places), I barely even mustered a shrug. If it was in any way funny, insightful or even vaguely original it still wouldn't be much more than some weird little troll deciding to 'have a go'.

I take my lack of reaction as a sign that this plan of mine is working. If I was more fragile then it almost certainly would have gnawed away at me, causing me to start to doubt myself horribly, but nothing at all has happened.

A bit of a failure on the part of the writer then.

Today at work has been ok. we've been relatively quiet but their have been enough calls to at least give the day some shape. It's given me time to have a hearty laugh with my colleagues though, and that's always a good thing.

My state of mind has been mostly very good today, no doubts creeping in at the edges, a successful time all round I think.

I did have a little moment when I paid £300 for a mattress using my credit card...not because I'm worried about not being able to pay it off (I'm totally fine with it), but it was just that same 'eep' that I had when I threw down the money on the flat and that passed quickly enough.

Still waiting to hear if I'm going to get a permanent position at work, knowing for sure would certainly take a lot of background stress off my shoulders and allow me to get planning. In the meantime I'll just have to slog on hoping that it all works out.

The Scores -

The Good -

I maintained my positive outlook at work
I didn't get even remotely upset about the blog attacking me.

The Bad -

That annoying wobble over the mattress, got to get over the money issues (anyone know the winning numbers for the lottery with week?)