Day Five: Early morning twinge, ok day

I get a twinge when, at around 4.30am, Kat tells me an ex has been round to her apartment to watch a movie during the evening. The physical reaction is interesting - I start shaking as if I've a lump of ice in the core of my being. I'm able to almost dispassionately observe my situation though, as my rational mind maintains complete control and I realise with absolute certainty that I have nothing to fear from this guy. This doesn't stop the shuddering from becoming pronounced enough for Kat to hear it in my voice though.

Add that I upset a friend last night who had just done me an unbelievably amazing favour and it's a heavy hearted Alex that clambers out of bed after a mere 3 and a half hours sleep.....

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The drive was ok though, the car warmed up, and the aerial being up has really fixed the radio issues. Getting to work I remembered the drama of yesterday, and wondered how it would pan out.

To be honest there was nothing particularly dramatic, a few comments, a bit of a laugh about it with the other people who'd been attacked and a LOT of calls. Had a couple of angry, sweary customers but let them wash over me.

Not much else to report, so here are the scores for today -


The Good

Had another assessment and was told in no uncertain terms that I'm doing very well at my job - always good to know.

Got on well with my colleagues in my team, a group of people I'm starting to like immensely.

Was relieved to see that my wages had gone into the correct account this week.

Genuinely thrilled to get a mention on Bête de Jour! I've been following Stan's blog for a while, you should too - http://betedejour.blogspot.com/



The Bad

I feel dreadful about upsetting my friend last night. I've apologised though, so I guess there's not much more I can do right now. Time will fix it all

That early morning twinge was a reminder that I still have a long way to go before I get this all straight in my head. I have to content myself with crawling along for now, even if I do feel the urge to try a sprint.


Sorry that it's a short one today, there's really not much to report.