Day Whatever-Day-It-Is: Thinking

OK, here it is, I'm thinking that maybe I've given away too much now on here. The experiment has done more than I could have hoped for it to do yet I'm finding less and less to write about.

Overall I'm in a good place, certainly better than I was when I started, so I don't know that I want to keep on writing. It's almost as if I've reached a point where I have to continue the journey privately.

Does that make sense?

Anyway, life is good. Kat got her spousal visa from the Home Office and will be here in less than 3 weeks. I've got a permanent job and a nice flat for us to both start our life together in. I've also started thinking about playing gigs again, and then making new music. Then I'll get painting and drawing.

Over and out.

EDIT: turns out that today is probably day 45, so it seems the right place to stop writing.

Day 37: Off I go!!

Heading to the US for a week, back soooooon :)

Day 36: Bill and Visa stuff

My brain has been totally full of stuff to do with bills and Kat's Visa today. Sorry about the less than interesting posts recently, been too busy.

Will try and get back to keeping you informed asap! :)

Day 35: Overslept and feeling 'meh'

Overslept after a long night, now I'm feeling a bit 'bleh'.

Not sure why, just a general lethargy today.

Snowing outside, warm in the flat, going to the US on Wednesday....could be worse yet I still feel a little overwhelmed by life today. It always surprises me when the shadows creep up on me, especially as I've been doing so well.

*sigh* I guess I just have to battle through

Day 34: Still pondering

Yeah, I'm still working out how to proceed. In the meantime here are some bullet points of my day

• Work - not bad, still getting on well with my colleagues
• Shops - Merryhill is horrible on a Saturday, luckily it's only 5 minutes drive from home
• Wedding - trying so sort out the invites, weirdly I get stressed about fonts and layout
• Flat - been building furniture

Oh, and I'm endlessly in love with my wonderful wife

An aside

http://deathrayboogie.wordpress.com/2008/10/03/wristopolis/ - this is rather good. Wrist and Pistols was a band that I played a couple of shows with a few years back and then released a 7" of. They've put everything they ever did up for free at the link back there. It makes me happy, maybe it'll to do the same for you?

Day 33: Taking stock

Almost halfway through (I decided that this would take the 60 days at least rather than the shorter 45) and how is it going?

Surprisingly well I feel that it's working. Some of the darker recesses of my mind seem to have been permanently sealed off, several negative thought processes broken once and for all. It's not easy for thoughts to head off down Everything Is Shite Avenue any more, their shortcuts all snapped and replaced with a highway that heads straight to Believe In Yourself Street. Ok, the metaphor is laboured, but you get the idea!

I have a more grounded feeling of well being than I've ever previously had, and I'm more confident in day to day life than I've been in many years.

Overall I think what I'm doing is working.

The individual days don't seem as important as they did, as the victories are now vastly outweighing the loses... so I have to work out how to proceed with this blog, to work out what shape is needs to take for the next part of the journey.

I've made the changes, now it's time to make them permanent.

Day 32: Back online!!

Wow, that took a lot longer than I thought it would...but I'm finally online (and wirelessly) at the new flat.

The last week has seen a lot of ups and downs, but mostly I've been ok. There have been a few moments of feeling like crap, but they've been very much outweighed by the positive moments.

Instead of writing an epic post about the last few days, I'm going to just start from tomorrow when I get home from work. Here though, are the highlights of the last week....

• Rude neighbour acting like a total cock - shrugged off and ignored where once it would have bothered me.
• Feeling a little twitchy for a moment at the thought of various people hitting on Kat online, but again got over it.

OK, will be back to full speed tomorrow....